oh what a wonderful world!

so am i all alone? i feel like my closest companions are distant and the people i hate most are closest in mind. all together everyone looks like a large, unattractive crowd. all my role models are dead and even when they were living they were depressed. i wonder if im bound to follow the same road forever or if ill be within the light at some point in my life,bc im tired of the darkness and love unpreveilling and half truths and cheers about no one and nothing!